PND. Post Natal Depression. It happens to the best of us. It happens to those around you. It could happen to you. And it happened to me. I have shared parts of my struggle before. Not everything. Nope. Not out of shame. But because I like to keep some things sort-of-kinda-private. I like to be a positive person. I like to give out positive vibes. And now I have fought the funk. I can look back and realise with clarity. That I was not ok. That I needed help. And that it is totally ok not to be ok.
Uh huh. We had two under two. Two little ladies. 16 months apart. And it was tough. It was crazy. We thought we may loose our minds. Or never get sleep again. But at the same time. It was awesome. It was fun. It was hilarious. We made it. We survived. And instead of talking about the hard times. We want to talk about the awesome. Why two-under-two was the best 'mistake' we ever made.
How do you really know when you are done? Done having babies that is. For me. It should have been an easy decision. But it hasn't been. My doctors said no. My specialists said no. My hubby said no. My body said no. My health said no. My head said no. But my heart said yes. My heart didn't listen to any of them. It took a long time to catch up. Actually. My heart said heck yes have a few more. Sigh.
I know last week was World Breast Feeding Week. Word to the boob. Shout out to the milkers. Get jiggy with the jugs. Let's normalise Breast Feeding. I am all for it. Breast is best. Heck yes. Respect. I would even get a boob out in support. If it didn’t seem a little inappropriate. A little awkward. Not because they are little. Totes saggy. And not at all as pert as they once were. But because I am not breastfeeding. Sigh.
That is the question. And lately, I’ve seen and read a few posts about it being ok to go back to work after having a baby. I totally agree. There should be no be set rules. It should be whatever people choose to do. Whatever they feel is right. Whatever works for them. Whenever works for them. No one should judge. Nope. But what about the people choosing to NOT go back to work? Like me.